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Well, if you haven't guessed, I'm back and up to some more shenanigans.  Another project where it seems I'm biting off more than I can chew...  Same old, same old...

What can I say, though?  I have all of these inspirations clawing at the insides of my skull, all trying to escape through my fingertips and pencil lead; but I just don't have the time or the motivations.

Oh, that's right, I've been away and haven't written a journal at all this year...  Well, now's a good a time as any to get you all caught up on recent happenings.

I've officially finished my required classes (as atrocious as that last quarter ended up being in regards to grades; seriously, why did I stay in so many classes that required group work...?) and am currently on my final co-op.  Again I'm working in the IT department at the hospital where my dad works, essentially organizing documents and forms and data and such...  It's easy work and I get room and board for free, so I can't complain.  The early mornings, though, are leaving me drained throughout the day and more so at night.  I'm actually falling asleep before midnight some nights... :yawn:

But I guess you can say that's half the problem.  The other half remains my exposure to TF2.  Lately it's been slowing down with some of my friends going their separate ways and the boredom and frustrations I experience on the trading circuit, so as soon as I sell off some goods and square my debts to my online friends I should be off for a while, leaving me ample opportunity to work on my personal projects.

And now we're back to my personal projects.  God, it's amazing that I can still recall the majority of them in my head, as if I had just worked on them yesterday...  But if I can recall them, why can't I finish them or even work on them?

The answer:  what is it for?

Myself?  I'm the one making the stories, I already know how they end and the steps between beginning and resolution.  Is there any point to writing them down, aside from making a record for myself hen my memory begins to fade?

My audience?  WHAT audience?  

I might not have been as active on this site as I was in the past, but still all the activity I've seen this year on ANY of my pieces submitted have been a couple favorites here and there from people I hardly believe actually read the work they favorited.  Not a single goddamned comment, despite Deviantart inputting a special notice for viewers to leave a comment on the works they favorite.  Even real life friends I show my manuscripts to I'm starting to believe are simply humoring me rather than showing interest in my writings.

It's understandable that my combinations of fandoms might only appeal to a select audience, but it's incredibly disheartening to put together these fleshed out ideas and not have anyone give any feedback.  Can a chef fix a potentially broken recipe without someone telling him something is wrong after tasting it?  I would think not.  Even the pain from a scalding review is better than the despair of not having any review at all.


But I digress.  I am at least attempting to make the most of life outside of my hobbies despite my uncharacteristic lack of energy.  I just finished watching Frozen with what remains of my family here (3 of my sisters are out of the house either at college or in their own place), I've been going to the weekly Quizzo competitions at a local eat-in brewery, I went to my baby sister's musical performance on Friday, I watched Nonstop last week with my brother and dad (very good for a mystery thriller), and the week before that I went to Toracon and participated in my last Cosplay Chess match as Booker DeWitt.  I even purchased a Sky Hook replica for the occasion.

Well, that's about all I have for today.  I have another early morning tomorrow and another step in the weekly slog towards graduation in May.  See you all when I see you.
  • Mood: Neglect
  • Listening to: Random Music on My Computer
  • Reading: Old Works of Mine
  • Watching: Random YouTube videos
  • Playing: Pokemon X, TF2

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:iconrabbit-chainsaw:
IsZ lookimg for you....
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:iconrabbit-chainsaw:
you are here Machavelli?
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:iconrabbit-chainsaw:
Mac? you working hard or hardly working?
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:iconpumpkinapprentice431:
A bit of both, admittedly. ^^; Working on stories, working on a bit of housework (my sister's back in the house, so that was a given), you know.
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:iconrabbit-chainsaw:
XD okay, okay. just respond sooner or later okay?
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:iconpumpkinapprentice431:
You know I will. :)
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:iconnaga07:
thanx for the fave
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:iconpumpkinapprentice431:
No prob. :)
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:iconrabbit-chainsaw:
hai mac! *huggles*
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PumpkinApprentice431 Jul 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yo. :)
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:iconrabbit-chainsaw:
you doing anything or wut? (is curious)
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:iconpumpkinapprentice431:
Still working on my games, mostly gathering the necessary models.
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LexaKiness Jun 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks for the watch ^^
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:iconpumpkinapprentice431:
No problem. :)
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:iconrabbit-chainsaw:
mac ya here o ya tired?
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:iconrabbit-chainsaw:
mac? *is curious*
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:iconrabbit-chainsaw:
are u 0okay? *is conserned*
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:iconrabbit-chainsaw:
back from being mentally raped! how u doin mac?
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:iconpumpkinapprentice431:
Doing alright, just got in from mowing the lawn. All by myself...
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:iconrabbit-chainsaw:
And that fucking suck balls... :c
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:iconpumpkinapprentice431:
Ain't that the truth. :(
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:iconvaako-7:
Thanks for the watch!
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:iconpumpkinapprentice431:
No problem. ;)
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